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She always has a glass of water by the bed... Like I said before, she is very caring.

Suddenly, I felt a little weird! !

"Ahem..." I was choked by this sudden awareness and coughed.

She sat up and patted my back.

"Slower......"

She said with some worry.

These two words exploded in my ears like thunder. I turned around and opened the curtain behind me hesitantly...

A few seconds later, a sparrow flies past the window...

And my body was shaking involuntarily!

Immediately afterwards... I immediately got dressed and rushed out of the room.

She may have been frightened by my inexplicable behavior, she didn't say anything for a while, just stared blankly on the bed!

I ran to the street in a panic, and saw a yellow Jetta passing by, an old lady chasing a bus, a girl wearing knee-high barrel socks...

It's like my brain is being blasted... no, it's like being bombarded by continuous mortar fire!

No matter how hard I dare to believe it, I have to believe this unbelievable situation.

All of this...is exactly the same as yesterday!

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I live in a small city where I have to search for a long time on the map. I live a life that I don’t like and can’t escape. Three years ago, I met her and fell in love.

Right now I'm drinking.In the north, family members always drink when they see their wives.

It's my 12th...maybe 13th time sitting in this position.

In the same environment, they speak the same words, even the wine tastes the same

I've been through the same thing over and over

The spicy liquid crossed my throat, and I was drunk again.

She took the cup for me worriedly again, and drank it down for me amidst the noise of the crowd

I know...she never drank.

But this glass of wine, she has drunk it for me many times

......

In the room, I looked at her flushed cheeks from choking

She looked like this yesterday too... what will she say next? ?

I forgot......

'Cause I'm drunk this time of day

"You look tired"

She stared at me worriedly and said.

"Uh..." I hiccupped and didn't answer.She should have said this to me yesterday too.That must be the case, and nothing has changed about what happened anyway.I don't know why at this moment, I don't have any desire to talk, anyway, tomorrow, everything will return to the original point...

She was still looking at me, as if she still said something?But I didn't hear... Alcohol confused my vision, her face gradually became blurred, and for a moment, I felt that there were many things in her eyes.

"You'll never understand!"

I yelled drunkenly, pushing her away,

How I wish that tomorrow would be a new day, or maybe all of this was just a dream. "If it's a dream, let it end quickly..." I prayed, fell headlong on the bed, and fell into a deep sleep.

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......

"I love you......"

The same morning light, the same tone,

For me, this is a more cruel declaration than death, which means that I will be imprisoned in this day forever!

There is no past, no future, just this never-ending cycle.

I went out like a ghost, the yellow Jetta passing by, the old lady chasing the bus, the girl in knee-high barrel socks...

And I'm just a lonely traveler, and in the long river of time, I'm going to be alone forever...forever.

"Why don't you just kill me?" I inexplicably burst into a smile, and after a moment of spreading, I couldn't hold back anymore, laughing wildly on the street like a madman.

i am smiling

I hammered the ground with my hands and attracted the sideways glances of countless pedestrians. They covered their mouths and looked at me with an idiot expression. "Then come on, come on, haha." I couldn't hold back the overwhelming helplessness and loneliness in my heart, and staggered insanely to find a strange street.

I am a lonely traveler.

Since then, my life has been just wandering around the city doing nothing.I don't have to worry about my livelihood, and I don't have to worry about tomorrow's hardships. In this case, let me be a ghost of time.I forgot how long it was, how many scenery I had seen, and how many indifferent strangers I passed by.Day after day, I was lost in the maze made of steel and concrete, wandering, like a third party unrelated to the world, watching the growth and destruction of the world in a day.I gradually feel that this eternity seems to have become my destination.

No, I can't just be trapped like this

i can't take it anymore

So

I decided to try death

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i wake up again

"I love you......"

she is still talking